Feel cosy in your coated layer of skin

Okay maybe this is another sob story about acne and how it made me feel absolutely craaaaappy about myself; how it snatched away my self confidence and how I became uncomfortable in my own skin BUT there is a happy ending lol so keep on reading. So we're always being told something along the lines of "you are perfect the way you are" or "beauty is from within"..
Up until high school I didn't care much about "beauty" or the concept of "beauty". I didn't give so much power to my mirror reflection and my flaws were always unnoticed by myself. The odd few spots never bothered me, but as I reached the age of 12 I started to get more breakouts on my face and regularly. Even at that point I was fine with it I didn't really think about ways to cover it up, its only when I was constantly being told the absolute blatant.. "what's happening to your face?", " your spots have worsened".. "I feel sorry for you.." and so on, not only was it just people I knew it was also some of my friends. At that point I realised the acne on my face bothered everyone around me, more than it ever bothered me. I began to realise that all my friends had the flawless skin type and I had the other; the not so appealing type of skin. So what was next?, hunt for makeup lol! as funny as it sounds.. and as you may expect at this point already, yeaah I began to apply makeup to cover up spots. I started to understand the societal concept of "beauty" and how that extra coat or mask (makeup) is better, or at least better to put on than walk around in your acne prone natural skin. At this point my self esteem was really low I felt like the people around me felt disgusted by my acne spots/ marks. But on that note although I did begin to put make up on as I reached year 10/11 I didn't apply makeup on my face everyday to school. In the summer I had completed high school I began my acne treatment (a cream I was prescribed by my dermatologist). Thankfully the medicine worked its magic and my acne began to fade, I cant describe how good it felt! everyone around me had realised the improvement and I had received quite a lot of compliments.

But just when my self confidence began to rise.. I started getting other comments along the lines of.. "the medicine made your skin paler", "she wasn't as fair before". I don't know why but those silly comments made me feel guilty of something. I felt as though the medicine did lighten my skin. So to clear my guilty conscious I asked my GP whether the medicine I was prescribed had any thing included in it that would lighten my skin. He said that the cream had reduced the browning that my acne had caused by removing the damaged layer of skin. So the cream did not lighten my skin! (they wouldn't prescribe anything bad for the skin)
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But even during college I wasn't really feeling as confident in my own skin until the past year.
To be  honest I realised that the people who are the most beautiful are the ones with the most beautiful souls. Even the most beautiful face to everyone isn't at all real beauty.. if a person is kind at soul that person will magnify the strengths of another person; that person will have felt love for oneself and is full enough to be able to give another person the happiness they feel within themselves.

A person can never belittle another soul if they have love for their own soul. So no matter what your coated layer of skin looks like, it doesn't matter at all! you have to remind yourself that you are your soul and if your soul is beautiful it will shine through that coated layer of skin. Your skin should not dictate how beautiful you are, let the beauty of your soul beautify your face.

oh by the way! I don't go out like that LOL (snapchat moment)